untold pain...

She saw him very briefly tonight. The first thing that he said to her was, 'what, no hug!?' They hugged each other so tightly that she almost thought they were going to be stuck together. She felt really nice talking to him, but it was hard for her to look at him in the eyes when he talked.. for some reason. He got up to give her a hug bye and she wrapped her arms around his waist, told him to have a safe trip home, & to call her. He smiled. She smiled and felt so content, as though she had finally come full circle. She wasn in pain while sitting next to him not being able to touch him. She was SO unbelievably happy to be his best friend , his evrything. But now they decided to take a huge step. They were in a relation for long and now going backwards. Its just not two individuals... lot of factors decide whether they should unite… She wanted to make her parents happy and chose herself to be in melancholy .. But she knew she loved himand that she can never love someone else like the way she loves him..
He tried to convince her saying she can fall in love with the destined guy(he's convinced that she’d be madly in love with someone else) . While he was saying all these...she was in a different world..a world of herown..."seeing, & talking to him, like friends was the hardest thing" she thought..They wernt destined to be in a relationship but a lifetime friendship atlesat…she wished. Or this might be the last time she coud see im also..she wanted to cry out loud but she dint.. It can only worsen things and she knew it.
She saw him leaving..not jus from ther..but from her life..She could feel her soul being torn apart.. She had no option other than to bear the pain and smile.. A pain so intense and untold…